About love

Never able to draw the perfect heart shape and I always pronounce the word as 'hurt', is that a coincidence or a fate? Been through some relationships, kinna unofficial as we either only have the name or only have the rumour. So many real-life stories out there telling me how amazing love is and how it will surely come oneday but I'm forever on the waiting list. There are some lovely guys just few steps away whom I hardly summon the courage to say hello because I assumed that they won't be interested in a girl with too much fat, I played the perfect role of a coward. Even when I did, I failed, not so badly because they are very kind people, treated me with politeness. After all these hardship, how could you expect me to believe in the never-coming love? My friend said that she couldn't imagine any men willing to stand right next to me, tolerating all my unique yet hardly bearable flaws. I do have acute personalities, too many, I know, the reason why those who came for me left and those were afraid of asking if there's any. But I'm not going to change because I love the way I am, including the evil side of me. Whatever, just feel free to leave, I will not ask for more. I insist on my idea of love and I'll wait forever, trust me I won't give up, never will I compromise. We'll see.